brooke is everyone's fantasy travel companion

( Maybe I'll admit it. I'm a little bitter. Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her )

It's hard to believe this will be our last term at school, isn't it? So many years here and only a few more months left before we're out in the world.

Holidays were nice. I'm glad to be back though and finish things off properly. Still some dances and Quidditch games left, and NEWTS of course. I'm starting to think I'm on track for them, although I'm terribly tired of revising. I think I'm taking a week off revising completely, just worrying about my classwork, and then I'll pick it up again. Perhaps by then it will seem a bit less tedious, although not likely.

I just finished a marathon baking/cooking homemade goodies session, but it was completely worth it. Although I don't think I want to look at fudge again for a while.

Three more days! I can't wait. Iona thanks for shopping with me yesterday. And the powder is brilliant.

Early to bed and I hope everyone has a Happy Christmas if I don't see you.

Home! I'm going home! I don't think I've ever been this excited for Christmas Hols. Alright I probably have but this year it's extra a lot.

Now to do my Christmas shopping and help decorate the tree at home and all sorts of other things.

[Marty]

Do you still have my parents phone number? Are they letting you leave the house yet? Call me tonight? I don't care if it's just for five minutes and your parents are watching us every second but I want to come see you tomorrow.

How are you?

Now I really can't wait for the next few weeks to be over.

We're planning a cookies, cocoa, and caroling party for the night of the dance for the ickles and anyone else who doesn't want to go to the dance. It will be in the Hufflepuff Common Room and any who would like to attend are welcome.

[Private to Luke]

Have you seen Marty?

[Private to Marty]

Funny. I didn't think I played that dirty.

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[Private to Luke and Syl]

What happened with Josh and Marty??

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[Warded Against Prefecty types (Except Lucy and Iona) as well as against the HB/HG] If it wasn't against school rules just now I feel like doing something like streaking through the castle in my knickers. Just to blow off steam. Maybe we should have a massive streaking party. Or polar bear club.

Or maybe we should just all have a massive food fight in the Great Hall again.

Game on Saturday. Maybe that will help.

[Private to Marty]

Hi

Private to IonaI have pizza and butterbeer.

I was going to ask Evie too, but I am thinking you might just need some time with a mate to talk?[/private]

Oh Hogwarts. How I can't wait to leave you some days.

I spy with my little eye. A friend.

[Private to Hufflepuff Cheer]

Where were everyone's heads during practice last night??? The game is in less than TWO WEEKS. I'm scheduling extra practices on Thursday nights these next two weeks and everyone had better Bring It. And Daniel, fear of the SNEEZING SICKNESS does not COUNT as an excuse.[End Private]

Christmas Hols seems MUCH TOO far away just now. I cannot wait. I intend to spend the entire time not thinking about school or NEWTS and just having fun.

That's it.

Lucy Weasley. I AM TAKING YOU TO SEE MADAM POMFREY.

[Warded to Josh]

Happy Birthday. I had Marty take your pressie up to your room. If he eats it let me know. It was biscuits and a pair of gloves. Hopefully he didn't EAT the gloves.

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[Warded to Marty]

And you. You other you. If you ate it I will be cross.

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[Warded to Aaron]

Hi.

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[Warded against Aaron]

Well. I. Yeah.

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[Private to Aaron]

How's Emily? I was going to go up last night but figured with your family and everything you probably were overwhelmed already. Can I get you anything? Do you need anything?[/private]

[Private to Self]

Last night.

I had no idea there could be that one person that makes it all make sense. None.

I think maybe I want to feel this way forever. needed that.

I probably should have said something to defend Annie but I couldn't. It's kind of like she brought this on herself and now she has to deal with the consequences. Maybe that makes me a horrible person. All I know is she doesn't want anything to do with me and when it came to it, I couldn't open my mouth. I tried to tell her. All I did was try and tell her how people would react, and how her actions might be interpreted. And she couldn't see it or maybe she's just clueless. Or maybe she really isn't Annie anymore, not the one I was friends with once. I guess she has new friends now to pick up the slack in any case. I feel badly if she's hurting right now, but I don't think I'd be welcome anyway. [/private]

I am going to be so glad to be done with school. Back to studying for NEWTS.

[]Private to Roomies and Friends]

If anyone's looking for me I'm up in the hospital wing. Madam Pomfrey wanted me to stay the night and get some rest. She said there's nothing wrong with me a couple of good night's sleep won't fix and that I should be taking better care of myself so that's good.

Umm. Could someone bring me my pajamas and toothbrush and maybe something to read?

I'm not feeling too well. Don't know if it's just being tired or what or maybe I'm getting sick but I feel all weird and exhausted and our room is freezing, but I can't sleep.

I decided to give my books the heave ho for the night and take a break.

Someone entertain me.

What are three things you'd want on a deserted island?

Private to Marty

What is going on?

Private to Aaron

I know it's probably not my place to say this to you, but I'm worried about Marty. I know you probably saw what he put in his journal. I'm starting to think maybe he's thinking about hurting himself or something. I don't know, really, but it scares me a little bit, and I thought maybe someone needs to do something about it.

So umm how are you?

You decide what you want to do Saturday?

Nothing like a nice snog with an ex good girl's night to cheer you up. And treats from my Secret Pal! All good things, especially the friend that hung out with me on Thursday night.

I can't believe it's October already. This month seems to have gone by in a blur of studying and classes and Marty. Hogsmeade coming up next week. I need some more ink, I've been going through it at an alarming rate and I'm thinking I'm stocking up on Sweets and stuff for my Secret Pal person too. Just to have on hand.

I can't wait till next weekend, it will be SO good to get out of the castle.

Anyone want to go for a hike on the grounds with me this afternoon?

This has been the worst day EVER.

[Private to Marty]

I hate have no words. I thought we actually had some sort of respect for each other and that you actually liked me.

Apparently I was wrong.

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How many more days? I believe Albus said two hundred and forty something. It cannot come soon enough.

Good job at practice today guys. The routine is really coming along. And don't worry about dropping me Daniel, it happens all the time. That's what the cushioning charms are for.

[Private to Self, Readable by Aaron]

My arse hurts. Sorry I just had to say that.

I honestly cannot stand to be in the dorm room anymore. The silence is killing me. Annie and I haven't really spoken since our fight and when we do it's strained and overly polite. I honestly don't know if I even want to be her friend anymore. I didn't say anything that didn't need to be said. Maybe we were just meant to drift apart. I don't even know. I just wish seeing a friendship die didn't hurt this much. If I hadn't been worried about her I wouldn't have said the things I did, I just don't know if we can be friends the way things are now, with who she's become. It's like Annie's still in there but she's not. I don't know. I really don't.

At least I have alot of extra time to study. We're still on, right Aaron? I've pretty much made my way through the stuff we talked about. I'm glad we're working on this together. It's still stressful but it's less so with you there.[/private]

Went for a run after to burn off the kinks, I think I'm going to try and go every day now, just to get out of the castle and have a break from studying. If any of the team wants to join me I'll probably be going around five in the afternoons.

For what it's worth I think the free Hugs thing is pretty cool. Thanks, Noah for mine.

[Private]

I think I am better off not saying anything to Annie anyone anymore. Just keep my mouth shut and study and worry about NEWTs and let other people figure out their problems.

How is it possible that somewhere along the way Annie became this person I don't even know anymore. I mean, yes it's mean to say that but it's true. She goes from hating the slambook to liking it when it says nice things about her. I don't have any real feelings about it either way. I think mostly it's funny but I don't like it when it gets out of hand when people's feelings get hurt, but I think anyone that takes it really seriously is sort of silly? Like half the stuff people say in there is ridiculous. And I just don't know, I feel weird around her now since our fight. We still study together some and of course we're together a lot because of circumstances but I don't know how good a friends we are.

It sucks. It really does. I just never knew she was so tied up in having problems about the way she looked. Why does she need anonymous people on the slambook to boost her ego? She's pretty, she should see that. It all goes back to all of this with Scorpius. Did she feel some sense of self worth because he wanted her? This whole thing with Nikki reminds me of it a bit, only I hope Nikki is alot more sensible about it than Annie has been. I'm disappointed in her maybe, or maybe it's that I don't like who she's becoming. I don't even know how to talk to her anymore. It's like I want to help her but I don't know if I can? Or if she wants me to? I am just at a complete and total loss.

Last night with Marty was nice. Just sitting in the common room with him late and lounging together on the sofa, talking about everything and nothing. I like that I can be me with him. I know we're just friends or whatever right now, and I think that's probably what I need, but it's nice to know that there's a chance some day it will be more than that. I like that he's giving me time and space and we can just hang out. I like that a lot. I think I like him a lot too. I still miss Fred sometimes, but it's become easier to deal with. Schoolwork has a way of being a good distraction.[/private]

[Private to Iona]

Feeling any better? I think we need to cheer up Nikki and keep her mind off this Luke thing a bit. Any ideas?[/private]

Nikki, I'm going for a walk today after classes to get some air. You want to come with me?

Dueling club tonight, I'll have all of you know I've been practicing so watch out!